i hate going to bed when things have not been cleared.

so i finally fell asleep at 4am and i woke up at 9.30 and i went back to sleep and now i'm up again. my heart feels heavy, i hope yj funfair will cheer me up :(

bad news last night, why must everything bad happen on the same night! ugh kill me. and just went i thought i should go shopping to take my mind off things: "if you are contemplating a session of retail therapy, think again. buying things to make yourself feel better may provide temporary relief. but in a couple of day's time, whatever has been bothering you will still be bothering you. any impulse buys you make today could drain your bank account of much-needed funds. save your money for another day and don't take any financial risks." -.- sometimes these horoscope stuff can be annoyingly accurate. not that i believe it, it just makes me feel even more zxzx. rawr life sucks.

so phelan just made me smile. but on happier times, i'll be laughing like a goof. sigh


i love you.

11:41 AM